Only after so many months of being comfortable at where I am now did I realise that I was actually running away from a problem all along. A problem that I thought had once been solved actually never had. I just thought/ pretended it had because I chose not to face it. And it just dawned upon me that... I'll still have to pick up everything that I had chosen to leave behind. How cruel it is that a once tiny issue can mount up to a bigger one. It's like saying: 'I'm having a headache. But I guess this is just normal. Maybe I'm too stressed/ tired." Then you choose to ignore the headache thinking that it will be gone after a few hours. But who knows, a simple headache can actually be a symptom of brain cancer? (Okay, I'm exaggerating a little here just so that you can picture what I'm trying to say. I'm not really sure if a headache can actually be a symptom of brain cancer.) Like it or not, the problem will still persist whether you choose to face it, or feign it. *forces a smile out* At times such as this I feel so alone. I know there are people who care and will give support. Yes, I seriously know and I do appreciate all that, really. But it's just that... Some things cannot be easily expressed in words. And you'll never know how one is feeling unless/ until you have been in the same shoes.
I tend to think alot. Too much in fact. I just let imaginations run through my mind when it actually never happened before. I once told myself that I could probably write a book out of my imagination. That's really how much I can think.
Yes you are right, it's time to get out of my comfort zone yet again. It's definitely not going to be easy, but nothing's impossible with God. The only assurance I can hold onto now, and still in the future. Let me take that huge step of faith through the invisible wall in front of me. Step out with me? (: