I saw a really big (maybe I've never seen one so big before) COCKROACH while I was bathing just now -.- Kept looking at that thing (it was at the door, wasn't really close to me). Was wondering how to get out of the bathroom. LOL. I didn't want to shout for my maid 'cos I'll feel bad for waking her up, plus the door is locked. But anyway eventually I did when I got out. =/ Now got 2 baby cockroach outside -.- Usually they come from the rubbish chute. YUCK. *shivers*
Piano Ensemble girl asked me to play for concert somewhere in Nov. I told her nooooooo. No confidence, I'm hello. only in grade 4. Plus I haven't had lessons for 6weeks. Oh, but still, I'm supposed to give her a reply by end of this month. I don't need end of this month to tell her, I'M NOT PLAYING. Haha.! =P
Uh, must really boost my confidence level. I think it's totally not there. Gack. I feel short of alot of things, inadequate of skills. I remember Clement's email about not looking at my inadequacy but to look at what God can do through me (something like that). Ugh. *chokes*
I should also stop being too nice to people. I think I get taken for advantage too easily. Rarh.